2010 Resolutions

A New Year's resolution according to wikipedia is ' a commitment that an individual makes to a project or the reforming of a habit, often a lifestyle change that is generally interpreted as advantageous ' or in another word another chance for us to get it right :)

I, like millions of others have made a list of my resolutions on 2010. I did not want to stress myself so I just limit it to the final five. Here there are:

1. Quit smoking
2. No drinking
3. Continue my studies
4. Exercise MORE!
5. Live a happier life

I do believe making resolutions is a cleansing ritual of self assessment and repentance that demands personal honesty and, ultimately, reinforces humility. But isn't breaking them is part of the cycle?? Hehehee.. Just joking!

Happy New Year!

Letter To A Girlfriend

Yes, i'll be there for u whenever u feel down. I'll be there for u even if the world turns up side down. I promised u my life to be yours and i will honor my promise, even if my heart break into pieces. I have lived my life knowing that i have felt loved. I know that i am a brat at times, and i know i can be a saint.

Sometimes we overlook what our partners need. Sometimes we do things that we regret. I have done my fair share, but not loving u enough is what i have never done. I have poured all my effort in supporting u and giving u a life that u deserve. In terms of effort, u have been my witness. U know me as mr effort. So i will understand even if u have not. What i do for u i will never ask in return. What i cry for u i will never ask in return. Knowing u have been a blessing and a pain.

The truth of this letter is just to tell u that i have already arrived at the junction of choice. We have been together for almost 4 years now, we will be celebrating our 4th Anniversary in a mths time. I hope there will be more. I just hope u understand when i say that i love u with all my heart but i am getting weak. I always swore to you that i would never fall apart, u always thought i was stronger but in truth u are the stronger one. Sometimes i wished that i would always make u happy but i forgot to take care of myself sometimes. This is probably the problem.

In keeping u happy, i have neglected what i truly feel. How many times have we argued who was better in taking care of each other? I have lost count. How many times have u told me to guide u in a way that u would understand and follow? I have lost count. How many times have i been told to talk to you in manner that won't hurt ur feelings? I have lost count. As we have talk before there is so much u in what i do that i have lost myself to suit u. Ur needs at ur beckoning. Maybe i'm just worn out for the moment. It's at times like this when i'm alone that i truly understand that i need u but not in the manner that u need me. It's times like this that i see that i have given all and hoped the same in return. It's times like this for all that i never wanted in return i actually wanted.

I hope u understand when i feel like this is not because i hate u or despise u for not being there for me or for not trying to be what i wanted u to be, it's just that i am tired. Tired of being the stronger one. Tired of being the one who can take all the punishments and still care, love and make it up so that we can be together. I M******* W**** am not as strong as u think. U N********** R**** have worn me out.

My love for u have stood through the test of time. My heart is the one in question. Please understand that IT cannot hold on by itself. It is withering away and I am trying my best to patch it up as best as I can. I hope u will see through your eyes what I see in mine.

With All My Love. Yours only!

Love S.O.S

Him:

Sure I've been in love a time or two

But in the end I still choose you

No one could ever make me feel this way

That's why it's killing me, what we're going through

Somehow thought between me and you

Our love would stand the test of time and hopefully it will never fade

Me:

But we're not making love no more

We're not even trying to change

Tell me baby how it slips away

Does it ever stay the same?

We can't even talk without fighting

We've run out of words to say

D, I know that things aren't always going right

But I do think it deserves a fight

A love like our don't happen everyday

And we're losing it right as we speak

And if we don't wake up..... it will just become a memory

And I don't want that

It's not too late for me..

For us

To change.........

:(

sepi hati terjadi lagi*mungkin sampai mati aku sepi*biar senyum hadir di hariku* namun ini hanya di bibir saja*aku ini yang bisa mengerti*walaupun yang lain mau mengerti*namun berat beban hidupku*biarkan saja*biar saja aku yang tau* sejarah cinta dan hidupku*penuh duri dan banyak ranjau*perlu kesabaran yang penuh untuk tetap ku berdiri*ada saatnya ku bicara*bila hatiku telah bulat*sepanjang ku bisa atasi semua*aku tetap diam*

-->Randomly Me<--

I've been tagged again!  By you know who..

Rules:  Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with 16 random things, facts, habits or goal about you.  At the end choose 16 people to be tagged, listing their banes and why you choose them.  Don't forget to leave them a comment or tag them in your note to read this..

16 Random Things About Me:

1. I hate, no I'm terrified of spider.  Even the lil one.  
   
2. I love chocolates.
   
3. I normally eat ice-cream quickly because I don't like it anymore when it's melted.
   
4. I'm very very moody when I'm PMSing.  It's not my fault.  Blame it on the hormones.
5. I shake my leg when I cannot sleep.
   
6. Every year my resolution is to exercise.
   
7. My favorite color is green.
   
8. But I always wear black because it makes me look slimmer hehe...
   
9. I love cooking but I hate cleaning up.
10. I wish I have more time for myself, if possible more money too..
11. I don't believe in love at first sight. You might like that person but love? I don't think soo..
12. When a pack of cigarettes increase to RM10, I will consider on quitting.
13. I'm not very romantic, ask my boyfriend.
14. It's difficult for me to sleep in broad day light.
15. I don't have flat stomach.
16. I love food. That explain random things #15.

I'm tagging Niza, Ujen, Rayyan, Elle, Sha, Nisa, Tyiana, FastBone, Hans Isaac, Jude Law, Inul Daratista plus four of my imaginary friends.

I Wanna Be A Librarian!

This Friday I would like to be a librarian.  A hot librarian. :)

Why?  Besides being every man fantasy, I want to be a librarian because I'm dominatrix and I love books.  The idea of a library full of books, the books full of knowledge, fills me with love, excitement and endless wonder.  Plus I can meet smart and intelligent men at the library.  *wink* Hehe.. 

In my opinion, despite popular theories, I believe people fall in love not only on good looks or fate but on knowledge. 

TAGGED!

Ira has tagged me.  So, like it or not here it goes....

RULES: Use Google Image to search the answer to the questions below.  Then you must choose a picture in the first page of the results, and post it as you answer.  After that, tag 6 people.

I AM...

still single and ready to mingle hehe... *wink*

I REALLY WANT TO GO TO...

rome because it's soooo roooomaaaannnttiiiccc...

MY FAVORITE PLACE IS...

shopping mall, where else!

MY FAVORITE THINGS ARE...

MY FAVORITE DRINK IS...

mojito babeh!

MY FAVORITE FOOD IS...

ketam masak lemak cili api.. sluuurrp!!!

MY FAVORITE COLOR IS...

I LIVE IN...

I WAS BORN IN...

I ATTENDED THE FOLLOWING...

     

MY FAVORITE STORIES HAS TO BE...

MY HOBBIES ARE...

MY WISH IS FOR...

world peace and iphone 3G for myself :)

I'M TAGGING...

Elle, Nisa, Tyiana, Mr. FastBone, Sha & my imaginary friend. 

Who Will Be The Last One Standing?

Location : My Lil' Havana (My Room)

Attire : Boxer and Baby T

Mood : Tired but smiling

Listening To : All The Single Ladies-Beyonce

Congratulation to Ann on her wedding last Sunday.  She finally found love.  It's not an easy journey but she managed to crossover.  

Me on the other hand, is still standing on the other side of the river.  Waiting for the right moment and the right reasons.  

Are U Game?

I love Friday.  Don't you? 

Let's play a game.  On the first Friday of every month, I (you too if you are reading this post!) will be someone else.  It's like playing a different role every month.  You must pick a character/person/role and provided details on the particular character/person/role that you have chosen.

There is no hard and fast rule when playing this game.  You just have to publish a post on your blog every first Friday of the month.  It can be enduringly long or short and simple.  It's up to you.  Feel free to explore your mind, soul and insanity.  And with that I wish you good luck.. :)

Unbreakable.. But Once Broken Considered Sold?

I've been hibernating.  I spent my off days by sleeping and thinking.  I need to find my inner peace.  I need to find it now.  But I don't know how.. 

There are things in my head that I cannot explain.  I can't share it with my friends and I can't publish it on my blog.  It's not that I don't want to.  I just don't know how.. 

I think that I'm broken.  Could somebody please fix me up so that I can be normal again.. Please..